I chose to stay

Why are you here? Good question. Is it to  win a spelling bee? Is it to sleep all day? Get a good act score??? Are you here because of God or something else? Well that's a discussion for another day.  

Your purpose on this earth is not yet fufilled until your last dying breath. 

Why do YOU chose to stay in this life?

I choose to stay because I have a future family waiting for me. 

I choose to stay because I love watching movies.

I choose to stay because the best parts of my life haven't even happened yet. 

I choose to stay because I can't help people I love if I'm gone.

I choose to stay even though high school was rough. 

I choose to stay because i like the butterflies I get around you. 

I choose to stay because I have a mission to serve. (Even if it's just a short 18 months)

I choose to stay because my grandma isn't ready for me yet in heaven.

I choose to stay for the little moments that make me feel alive. 

I choose to stay because without pain we wouldn't feel joy. 

I choose to stay for the crappy days at work when your manager yells at you for wearing rad socks.

I choose to stay because I want to make a difference. 

I choose to stay to see my niece watch frozen 100 times in a row

I choose to stay because let's face it someone needs you. And you need them...

We help each other out. And with kind words exchanged. Maybe a compliment or two, you could see how beautiful this world is and how much more beautiful it is with you.

 

Nostalgia

There's that one day you feel like you're on top of the world then real life hits ya. You go to college, all your friends go to different colleges or on missions( perks of living in Utah). You're stuck. You feel like you could die and nobody but your family would notice because you went from feeling unstoppable to like "hey wait who are you exactly??" Like it's sad but it's true. You feel like nobody cares anymore and hey that might not be true but you can't help but get that feeling sometimes. Could be a little dramatic depends on who you are. Some people don't show as much emotion as some others but everyone feels something along those lines. This kinda has happened to me. I had the most incredible senior year and all of a sudden that life of bliss disappeared. Whoah guys it goes by fast. Life is good don't get me wrong but sometimes you just wonder who's actually there for you? And you'll find out no doubt graduating will help you with that question. And for all you lds people including myself I know God is there I have no doubts about that. He is there when nobody else is it is just nice to know someone I can actually see can be there too. I don't like this real life thing it's scary. I've got a lot of big decisions to make here really soon. Now I don't really know what I'm actually upset about losing my old life or maybe that one needs to go and I need to make a new life for myself? Hmmm don't really know. For now I'll keep going through the motions of everyday life. Im gonna try my hardest to make the best of it. I'm gonna try new things and not let things upset me as easily. Life is rough but I'm not complaining I'm just simply stating what's on my mind yo.

-k swizz